I don't know who I am. I don't know what I'm doing half the time. I just don't know anymore. I've been consumed by this sort of darkness for so long that I don't know how to get myself out of it. It's tearing whatever is left of the being I am apart. I can't find myself when I'm like this. I'm still young, maybe it'll take time. But I've been trying to deal with this feeling of anxiety for years, without any support. I've dealt with things my whole life without any support, that's how it's always been. I'm a very independent being when it comes to taking care of myself even when I'm depressed. I kinda want to take a sleeping pill & just sleep. Just sleep until I wake up happy again..