Guys, things are changing in my life and for the better. I was hesitant to write that because every time I think something is going amazing in my life, the exact opposite begins to happen. But bad times always happen, and they always seem to fade away eventually. The reason I said things are changing in my life is because I discovered something amazing. I discovered something every person has the ability to do, but very little actually hold.. and that's faith. Yeah, it's faith. It's something so utterly life changing. In my case, I began to build faith in God. Yes, a God. A higher power. Believing and having faith in God are two different things. Believing in a God is just recognizing that He's there. Having faith in God is knowing He can change every aspect of your life just by carrying that faith with you. It's an unbelievably beautiful thing when you discover it, almost indescribable. Tears swell in my eyes because of how incredible it is. It may sound insane to people, but only to the ones who don't hold any faith. I grew up with half of my family being believers and the other half being atheists and some agnostics. I was conflicted. But it helped me make my own decisions in life, it exposed me to both sides. For many years my belief in a God would linger, it would strengthen when things were going great in life and collapse when things weren't going my way. Unfortunately, this is how many other minds think.. and it's unfortunate. The moment I knew that every difficult situation happened for a reason and is intended to create a growth, my realization came to light. The moment I knew that worldly disasters and issues also happened for a reason, and that the people who died lives' did not go in vain, I knew where they went. I have just came to understand something so much bigger than me, and every other human being who is breathing today and at this very moment. I was inclined to spill out my thoughts, this is information that I just needed to let out into the world.. I don't care how insane, dumb, or whatever meaningless label it is called, because it is real. And I know it is the most beautiful, enlightening, gratifying, and humbling thing I've ever came to experience and ever will. I have found God.

Thoughts, Moving On

I think too much, I really do. I'll think I'm smart, then I'll think I'm dumb. There's no in between. I can still be a negative thinker when it comes to myself at times. I know I have great qualities. I'm compassionate, funny, unique, quirky, easygoing, friendly, giving.. Everything a genuinely good person is and I'm not cocky for saying that because more than half of the time I'll ignore those qualities and just call myself things that make no sense. Things that do not represent me in any way. I'm weird, but I think it's in a pretty funny way. I'll make funny facial expressions if someone says something odd, make a joke that makes no sense, or laugh at something that makes no sense. And for some reason, I'll equate that to me being slow or dumb. Why? I'm none of those things. And I can't continue to let it affect me. Because that isn't me, and it won't be. I'm not one to give up, and I won't because I aim to love myself fully and completely despite the difficulties that arise and one of them being having negative intrusive thoughts. Also, I notice staying in the present moment works wonders for.. everything. Far too often we think about what will happen next, or about what just happened. We never really think about now, the moment we're in. It does wonders. It helps you become your authentic and genuine self. It helps prevent overthinking. It helps you live in the NOW. I swear reading books have helped so much, acquiring knowledge from them and applying it to my daily life has done miracles. Without reading books, I wouldn't have been where I am today. It still isn't exactly where I want to be but I can definitely say I'm getting there, a lot closer than where I was before. I was completely lost, clueless as to what to do with my mental health and then it struck me.. I can help myself. I couldn't sit around waiting for someone to help me anymore, something had to be done. The internet, multiple Youtube channels, blogs, books are all resources that have helped get me where I am today along with a few stable family members. It's a shame that sometimes we cant turn to family because they're going through their own hardships and don't know how to help others in the process. Sometimes those family members can be immediate, which makes it much harder. Parents are supposed to be our source for advice, support, and guidance. Unfortunately, even parents aren't perfect. Even parents can be lost, because they are in fact human. But when children are lost and go to these parents who are just as lost as them, the children become even more lost because they then have no one to turn to, or at least think they don't. I choose to lead an optimistic lifestyle because I want to. Fighting off all demons and getting closer than ever to God is my goal. Yes, I believe in God and I have faith in Him. And it's crazy because no matter how unstable everything is in your life, despite all of the complex, difficult factors that go along with it, God can make it all disappear in a prayer and immense faith. Calling out to Him was the best thing I ever did. Sometimes we lose faith because bad things happen in life and we'll ask God, "How could you let this happen?!" not knowing it is that situation that will help us grow and that is why He will make exactly that happen. It has so much to do with faith, so much. Turning to Him is a beautiful thing. He can work wonders, but you have to make it happen for yourself too. That's another thing. You can pray and pray for something to happen but if you aren't doing your part then it definitely won't happen. That's why many times we think God has failed us, but in reality it is US that have failed ourselves and God. That's enough of my rant. I had quite a bit to say. Whoever is reading this, if you want to take something out of this, just know you can change things for yourself. No matter how deep of a hole you think you're in, it's never too deep. You can always take yourself out of it if you want to, and you can start now. But it starts with your mindset and attitude.

Knowing and Gaining Happiness from Yourself

This is something everyone should work on throughout their lives. Accepting and loving myself 100% and not depending on anyone for my own personal happiness is a goal I'm working for each and every single day, it's a process but you have to begin somewhere. These 2 concepts will guide you for a successful life. No one wants to depend on anyone, but when they make you feel wanted sometimes you just can't help but make them your source for happiness especially when you don't have one. But when they get angry or turn on you, it feels as if nothing feels right. And that's the issue, you are the only person you can truly depend on. You're the only one who is truly, in fact permanent. That is why you have to make yourself your own source of happiness. I'm still trying to figure out what that means and how to do that myself. But generally, it just means not to depend on anyone else because other people can fail you, and it teaches you how to be there for yourself. Manifest the life you desire.

5 Types of Twitters

We all know about the wondrous, time consuming social media site that is Twitter. It's full of different people with different personalities, but oddly enough they all compile into certain groups. So based on my and other's observations, I decided to make a list of these kinds of users and what Twitter "cliques" they fit into.

1. The 4/20 Blaze It, Just Chill "Hippies"
Their all about "spreading positive vibes" and smoking pot, love being trippy and taking either acid, shrooms, xanax, whatever man. Anything to open their third eye, man. Ugh, can't contain how rad that is. Tooooo rad.

let's viiiiiibbbeee bruh

wow super deep.. *cringes*

2. The "Artists"
Basically an Ian Connor wannabe, their idol is Kanye West, claims to be a designer, has less than a thousand followers and is following more than half of them, designs a line with money from God knows where but makes zero sales. OH, and wears fake Chanel shirts.

oh this is bad, really bad .

yeah keep your head down boy, ain't nothin' to be proud of.

3. The $ad Boys Unknown Death 2001 "Cyber Princesses"
Probably listens to Yung Lean & Spooky Black, posts booty pics, pretends to be an anime character, wears chokers, looks like their fainting in almost all of their selfies. Also has a "pale" blog on Tumblr.

omg super cute emotional shawty!!!11!! :(

4. The Indie "Hipsters"
This particular clique usually wears skater skirts, blows their allowance money on American Apparel clothing, loves (or pretends) to love The Arctic Monkeys, The Black Keys, or a band similar to them.

Unintentionally stumbled upon this perfect portrayal of an indie "hipster".
She's wearing a skater skirt AT an American Apparel store.
 I'm telling you, I know what I'm talking about.

 5. The Sassy "Literally Cannot" Girls
 Literally is their main word, literally. Even though it's always used out of context.

LITERAAAALLLLYYYY.

There you have it, the 5 main Twitter cliques based on the average user's observations. Do you fall into any of these groups, or do you have your own category? 

When Life Gets Confusing

When life gets confusing, just know you'll learn and it won't be as confusing anymore. Things get better, perhaps not in that very moment that you want, but it does. It can get frustrating waiting for a happy day to come, but there's also a catch.. You have to want it. You have to want and strive for the happiness to achieve it. You cannot lay in bed and mope around expecting a better day to come, because it won't unless there is action being taken. It's a process, but it's one worth going through because the outcome will be better than you have ever imagined.

Ahhh, the good old "mascara face". I never stopped to wonder why I felt the urge to hang my mouth open as I applied makeup that went on my eyelashes until I noticed many other women do the same thing! What in the world is going on?

Well, one possible reason could be that sagging our mouth downwards stretches the skin around the eyes and allows for better mascara application.. Which makes total sense, but isn't it involuntary? Well, maybe our brain knows beauty hacks better than we do.  Either way, it's equally horrid and hilarious. 

Norms.

What do we think when we hear that word? We could say society's expectations, rules that are generally accepted by most individuals, etc. So what's so unhealthy about having manners? Nothing at all. However, new norms that have developed through the 21st century especially with advancement in technology have changed society's way of thinking, especially in teenagers, and dramatically. Social networks have taken a huge part in this way of thinking. For example, Twitter and Tumblr being the most popular, and I can say this from experience because I am still in high school. I haven't been the only one who has seen these drastic changes in mindsets either. It's all over everyone's news feeds, it just depends on who would like to feed into the things that are said and promoted. Things are nitpicked, how people are supposed to dress, walk, speak, live and if you do not live in the way they believe you should, you will become an outcast. Many of these people are walking contradictions as they say they stand for one thing and claim to have a certain belief then post things that effect a few to thousands of people emotionally. There are, of course, positive accounts as well on these social networking websites however it almost seems as if the negative ones are over powering the positivity. Very few to none of parents and adults are aware of this new behavior circulating on the internet but it has gotten out of control in the last year. The postings of illegal content has increased and self expression has decreased. So what are we supposed to do when this occurs? Here are some ways:

1. Report/Block any negativity even if it is not towards you.

Constantly being exposed to something that hurts you emotionally that can be prevented is not good at all and should be stopped immediately. If you do not like what you see, report the account as well as block them to prevent their posts from being on your timeline. 

2. Raise awareness on the issue.

There are people that want to speak up on the problem but don't because they feel that they will get personally targeted, when it is not true. You are entitled to your opinion and should be able to stand up for what you believe in at all times!

3. Learn to accept yourself and others.

Self acceptance and love is key to a successful and happy life, no exaggerating here. There will, of course be ups and downs in the road but ultimately, learning how to accept yourself will be the best, if not one of the best decisions you have made for your own personal fulfillment. Also, regardless of what someone wears, how they speak, and who they hang out with, it does not give anyone a right to treat them anything less of what they are, human. Everyone is worthy and we should all be treated as that.