Some things make no sense. Lots of things don't. But is it supposed to? Are there just somethings that aren't supposed to be figured out? Look.. I'm a really curious person, always wanting to figure out, well.. everything. And the moment I don't get something, I get frustrated out of my mind.
I over think, that's another thing and I hate it. I absolutely LOATHE it. It strikes up my anxiety and affects the way I act towards people. However, that's only when I over think, which is.. a lot. So I'm never really who I am around people because my thoughts control me. That's the crazy thing, the mind is a crazy thing. It's true you give how much power you choose to give it, but it's extremely hard not to give it any.. It takes hard work and practice to block out self destructing thoughts. I've been trying for so long, so so long. I'm losing hope, but I still have to try or else my mind will literally ruin my life and who I am as a person. You have to try even if there is barely any hope left, because trying and striving for something almost always guarantees success, and just giving up and not putting any effort guarantees only more misery. And no one wants that. No one.
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